As a kid, summer meant I went to the cottage, I made new friends, and I got to play all day, every day. It was so fun! And then school started again and no more of that.
As a teenager, summer meant I got to sleep in, hangout with friends, and it was still awesome! School meant seeing friends every day still, but no more sleeping in, and classes, ugh.
As a young adult, summer means being stuck on the island my mother moved to, seeing friends maybe once a week when they’re not working, and having nothing to do all day because I can’t find a job around here. And when school starts up again, OMG THANK YOU!
I’ve gradually turned into Harry Potter this way… at first, 4 months of summer seemed FANTASTIC, and now, less than 1 month in and I’m like “END DAMN YOU!”. I need a job, I need my G2, or at least to move in with a friend for a few days at a time every few weeks…
So my self esteem hasn’t been great for a few days…
I was called beautiful by a gay guy. That definitely improves my self esteem to hear! Firstly to be called beautiful, but secondly by someone who isn’t even sexually attracted to my gender? He didn’t even know I was upset or feeling bad, it was just a random gay guy who decided to say I was beautiful. He definitely made me feel it too! :)
Then someone else, a guy who’s had a thing for me for a long time but I’m not interested in, commented on a photo of me and said I looked stunning in the dress I was wearing. Helpful again :P
I’m frequently getting sex messages and the like as well.
My boyfriend was also telling me I’m beautiful last night after I was telling him why I was so upset. My friends have been doing the same for days.
But none of them really made me feel it. None, except the random gay guy today. Friends are essentially obligated to tell you you’re pretty when you feel ugly. Boyfriends of course think you’re pretty, and they’re sexually attracted to you. Many straight guys are attracted to many girls, so it’s like, meh. But a gay guy, someone who isn’t even attracted to me, randomly telling me I’m beautiful? That, that truly does make me feel beautiful… <3 He’ll never know how much he made my day :)